#7

Hey Jimmy,

I love you today.  It's crazy how I feel more connected to you and more in love with you everyday.  Thank you for helping me work through things and not completely shutting me down when I am upset.  I like knowing that regardless of how we are both feeling at the time, we are both on each others team.

I've started doing my student teaching at middle school now and it is so much different already.  My teacher is organized and has a vision for the students and I love it!  I'm still trying to see how I fit in, haha!  It was easier just to take over the other class.

I've been praying a lot for a deeper connection with the Lord, and what keeps coming to mind is the analogy of the wheel.  How whenever we may feel distant from the Lord or in the mud of life, He is still close to us, connected and pursuing us.

I love you buddy. :)

#6

hey buddy,

i thought a lot about you today.  i thought a lot about the unconditional love you show me so often.  thank you. thank you for coming back to the table to work things out.  thank you for assuming the best of others and encouraging me to do so too.  thank you for helping me when i am in the wrong see that i can be wrong and still loved. i would rather have the love than be right anyway.

we have been married for 70 days today, and i have fallen so much in love with you throughout those days.  you have shown me how much of a man you are, put me first, and loved me when i am really hard to love.  thank you for being concerned with my heart.  thank you for praying with me everyday.  thank you for making me breakfast, that i usually fight not to eat. i am sorry.  i'll try better.

i love you james leach, with everything i have.  i pray to be a noble wife for you.

Lord, Jesus,

Help me to be the wife you want me to be, not the wife you just will me to be.  You have given me the chance and opportunity to love someone, encourage them daily, and spend my life with.  Please help me not to take that for granted, and thank you for it daily.  Lord, thank you for James.  Help him to continue to grow in you, in wisdom and faith.  Help me to encourage him daily.  Help me to find more of my security and confidence in you.  Help me to love him as you do

#5

hey buddy,

i love you.  really, my heart doesn't love anything else the way it loves you.  the Lord has given me the best, and for that i am thankful.
thank you for hearing me.  thank you for listening to the words and asking about the heart behind it.
i'm sorry for the times i am selfish, and easily over emotional.  i try not to be. i often fail.  thanks for helping me climb out of those pits when i am in them.
i feel the lord at work in my heart these days.  i have felt a distance closing, and softening of my heart.  he is showing me grace, and bringing me back close to him even though i often push him away with distractions.  it's so dumb.  i am able to talk with my creator, the one who loves me more than anyone else can, and i choose other dumb things like seeing if anyone did anything on facebook instead. nope, its just another candycrush invite.  great use of time... and yet he doesn't stop coming after me.
thank you for helping me pursue the Lord.  thank you for being honest with me, and letting me know i am not alone.  i want to grow, and i want to grow together.  i'm thankful the lord let me have you as a race partner.  i want to learn more about what running this race looks like.  sometimes i look back at things i have or haven't done and get so down.  it's times like these i have to remember the true gospel, and that the lord takes my failures as his own. wow. i am so undeserving.
i kinda feel like i wrote this on the wrong blog, it probably should have been my blog to God.  it's my heart though, and i want to share that with you.

i love you.

rach