#5

hey buddy,

i love you.  really, my heart doesn't love anything else the way it loves you.  the Lord has given me the best, and for that i am thankful.
thank you for hearing me.  thank you for listening to the words and asking about the heart behind it.
i'm sorry for the times i am selfish, and easily over emotional.  i try not to be. i often fail.  thanks for helping me climb out of those pits when i am in them.
i feel the lord at work in my heart these days.  i have felt a distance closing, and softening of my heart.  he is showing me grace, and bringing me back close to him even though i often push him away with distractions.  it's so dumb.  i am able to talk with my creator, the one who loves me more than anyone else can, and i choose other dumb things like seeing if anyone did anything on facebook instead. nope, its just another candycrush invite.  great use of time... and yet he doesn't stop coming after me.
thank you for helping me pursue the Lord.  thank you for being honest with me, and letting me know i am not alone.  i want to grow, and i want to grow together.  i'm thankful the lord let me have you as a race partner.  i want to learn more about what running this race looks like.  sometimes i look back at things i have or haven't done and get so down.  it's times like these i have to remember the true gospel, and that the lord takes my failures as his own. wow. i am so undeserving.
i kinda feel like i wrote this on the wrong blog, it probably should have been my blog to God.  it's my heart though, and i want to share that with you.

i love you.

rach