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Hey Buddy,

It's been a while since I've written on here.  Love you more than ever lately.

We have had so much change in this last year.  Yesterday, when we were talking about this year, it hit me that it has been a really, really hard year at some points but also a really, really good year too.  I feel like the hard stuff we have gone through together has ultimately brought us closer.  I know we both really miss our first baby.  It's hard to understand why, other than sometimes things just happen.  I do think God used it as an opportunity to grow us closer and trust him more with his plan and his timing.  This baby that is growing in me right now is not our own, as hard as that is to surrender.  They are created by God first and foremost and he decides what their future holds.  Dang, that can be so hard sometimes, but is the ultimate reassurance.  Our hope is in Him!

I am so excited for this baby, and for you to be their dad!  You are so loving and loyal and I know you will cherish whoever is growing in there and poking me in the ribs, like crazy.  This next chapter of life is going to be a crazy one.  I am thankful to go on fun dates with you, snuggle, and feel close to you before the big whirlwind starts.  I hope we can figure the parenting thing out and still be adventurous and just bring our new member of the club with us.  :)

Thanks for working so hard for us lately.  Our deck looks amazing, you are a pro power washer, scrum master, let me sit in the car when its too cold to sell smoothies, and diligent with your time.  I appreciate it so much.  Your effort doesn't go unnoticed.

I'm not very eloquent with my words this morning, but I just want you to know I love you so much James.  I love how you love me without reservation and allow me to be me and grow and extend grace when I need it.  I love how you are kind to others and give our nephews and nieces time and attention and energy when you play with them.  I love how you can direct a conversation in a positive way if you see it becoming negative or turning into gossip.  I love how you praise God wholeheartedly and value the Gospel as truth and life and our one source of hope.  I love how you stand and absorb your surroundings, taking in beauty and creation.  I love how your an easy laugher, and get funnier everyday.  I love that you are strong and tough and also gentle and caring.  You have a good strong soft heart and I am so thankful that I get to love it.

You're my best friend buddy boy!  I hope we have a really great day today. :)